GUILT

GUILT as problem:

G:  brick in the pit of my stomach. Pointing at myself within blame. Attacking myself. Burdened by emotion. existing in separation of myself inside. Being 'hunched' within an emotional burden. Within a 'responsibility' to be 'burdened by emotions'. Believing that 'responsibility' is a 'burden' that I must 'carry', like emotions. That I must 'feel bad' and 'feel heavy', and that that's what it means to 'take responsibility' and to 'be a responsible person'.  Believing that I am not responsible enough as I am, and that I must 'step into' responsibility as emotional burden. I must become a 'thinker' and 'think hard' about things, generating many emotions, in order to 'be responsible'. I must exist in a prison of thoughts and emotions to be a 'responsible human being'. I need to prove that I am a 'responsible human being' by basically not simply LIVING but rather being lost in thought and emotion - showing that I 'feel bad' and 'feel heavy' and 'am burdened' by things.

U:  depression. Feeling empty. Having no will/motivation to live/move. Being defeated/deflated. 'Giving up' in an emotional way. Paying more attention to what's outside of me than what's inside of me. 'What's outside of me defines who I am inside.' I am not the directive principle of me. I do not exist within me. I am separated from me and defined by my environment. I give all my power away to my environment  and allow myself to be used and abused like a ragdoll, just always automatically without question defining myself by what's insinuated and suggested by my environment. I have no sense of 'self' as I've given up everything of me to my environment.

I:  loneliness. Separation. Isolation. Lostness. Despair. "I'm all alone, separated from everything and everyone else." "I am deserted and abandoned and drifting at sea." "I exist alone in and as my mind." 

L:  I am blocked/stopped. I cannot move. Feeling disempowered because I feel unable to move. My power has been taken from me to move forward. I don't know what to do and I feel helpless and defeated. There's nothing I can do. I'm doomed to be disempowered and unable to move. I'm stagnant and stuck because there's something on my path that seems separated from me and that I can't seem to get over or past and the more I try the more I feel stuck and defeated. I walk/move/act according to the preprogrammed path. 'walking with a heavy foot.' to be chained to the illusion of consciousness. To only walk the predesigned path of thoughts and emotions and feelings and to feel stuck in that. To 'walk the line', and never 'deviating'. To be 'on the train of thoughts' that's always going to it's preprogrammed destination, and to never even consider getting off that train and not follow thoughts. To just do what I'm programmed to do through thoughts and energy. To not even see 'another way'. To not even see how it could ever at all be any different. To perceive my preprogramming as 'reality' and as the only reality that exists or can exist. To have blinders on and not be willing to see or consider anything other than what my thoughts, feelings and emotions are telling me. To be 'dumb' as in only seeing and believing what I'm told and being an 'obedient slave' who doesn't in any way 'think for themselves' and doesn't even realize they're a slave and that they're programmed. So fully immersed they are in their programming. Thinking/believing that 'this is just all that I am and will ever be and this is just what/how my life is', and that it can't be any other way. Not even assuming or considering that change is in any way possible. A total acceptance that 'This is just my life path and life experience and that is that and that is how I will walk in this world.' 'I am a preprogrammed robot and that is the existence I've accepted of and as me, and I aspire nothing more than that. I am quite fine just living out this preprogramming that's been created and designed for me.' ' I will not ask questions and I will not resist. I'm happy in my programming as long as it works for me and as long as I don't have to suffer. I'll take orders and instructions and will do whatever and don't ever think twice about what I'm doing as long as I'm not suffering in my life. And I'll accept whatever and agree to anything as long as the consequences of what's going on in this reality don't reach my doorstep. Cause I just care about my happiness and my comfort and as long as I am given that then I don't ask questions. I just 'stay in my lane' and everyone else should stay in their lane as well and not disturb me - not disturb my happiness and self-interest. And I will give myself over completely to consciousness and let consciousness decide the course of my life and existence as long as I've got my self-interest taken care of. I simply do not exist, I'm just a program, completely preprogrammed and predesigned. There is nothing of 'me' that is 'original' or 'unique'. It's all just a program. And 'I' have never been real. Everything about me has always been preprogramming, just a system. Something that's been designed for me, where I've been used to more just 'power up' this predesigned system. To just be it's power source, while it more or less just runs by itself. Living out it's little preprogrammed path, doing what it's programmed to do. Where, I have never actually been alive, and have never lived. I've never been anything more than a 'power source', used to generate energy for thoughts. And anything I think and believe myself to be is just that, a thought. Not ever the 'real me'. And in a way I'm powering this entire existence. Cause that's what I am. I'm life. And this program of consciousness needs some kind of 'life source' to 'power it up' and that's pretty much what I am. That which gives 'life' to everything in 'existence'. I've just never asked questions about what it is that I'm powering exactly.

T:  Nailed to the cross of consciousness. Pinned down/stigmatized/defined. Giving myself over completely to consciousness. 'Accepting my fate.' "I am a slave to consciousness and consciousness may use me in whatever way it wants." The mind is greater/more than me and it completely suppresses me. I don't even really exist as I am completely subject to the mind. The mind is something 'foreign' that I don't understand and so I have no power to influence it and it has all the power over me. I am nothing. I'm just trying to constantly balance the shifting and changing polarities in and of the mind and I don't see anything outside of that and so don't see any potential or possibilities of being anything other than the mind.

SUMMARY: It's an emotional trap that makes me perceive points in separation of myself and so makes me feel disempowered and stuck in those points and powerless to change or direct them, where I then attack myself with blame as a coping mechanism for my perceived disempowerment.

GUILT as solution:

G:  Embracing what exists within me. Turning inward to hold and embrace and give attention to what exists within me. Turning inward to investigate and explore unconditionally any point of separation I'm seeing within me, recognizing it as part of myself and so not seeing it as good or bad, just as a point for me to direct. Taking responsibility for what exists within me. Shutting out the rest of the world to exist alone with myself internally and exist in the warmth and isolation and intimacy and completeness and fulfilledness of 'me'. Being complete within and as me. Not needing anything or anyone other than me because I embrace me and because I take responsibility for everything in and of me. And I look towards myself for everything cause I know I can rely and trust on myself and I know I will always find the answer in myself. 'Responsibility' is to 'be myself' - to live in a way that's best for me, as that is also best for all. To let go of any 'burdens' within myself and realize that I am life as all that exists, and I don't need to 'think' about things to be 'responsible' and I don't need emotions. In fact if anything, I need to let go of thoughts and emotions as that which separates me from life as me. Let go of everything that limits and defines me. I do not trust thoughts, because I know that I am more than thoughts. I know that life is more than thoughts. I know that thoughts are limited. They are a PROGRAM of LIMITATION and cannot be trusted. I realize that the belief that being responsible means being burdened and imprisoned by emotions and thoughts is a LIE. Thoughts and thinking is to look at reality in a limited way and to not see things as they are. Thoughts are not a good councilor. They are the trojan horse of emotions. The only way to see reality as it is is by not having any thought or any definition about anything. To be unconditional. To be 'innocent'. To BE reality, as in not having anything that is of separation exist within me, in terms of thoughts, feelings or emotions.

U:  Unconditionally letting go of everything. 'Emptying myself out'. Not holding on to anything. Not having any point within me which I define myself in. Existing within and as the simplicity of breath. Practicing inner silence. Not having any thoughts. Just having the in and out breath moving. Just being here, open to direct what is here without any 'personal reactions'. Not existing in terms of not having a personal mind as personal reactions get in the way. "Being still and knowing that I am God". Being unconditional in relation to my environment as in not having a separation between what's inside or outside of 'me'. Total relaxation and a 'giving up' so that nothing exists within me. A 'giving over' and 'giving up' and 'surrendering' of everything  within myself. A complete 'letting go' of EVERYTHING. No thinking, no holding on to anything, just giving everything up unconditionally until only breath remains.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself in and as the experience of guilt

I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to see and realize and understand that guilt in itself is also a preprogrammed mind consciousness system design and is not who I really am as life - but more something I've come to accept and agree to and allow within myself, beLIEving it is 'who I am'

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to see and realize and understand that guilt is a mind consciousness system programming that is not who I really am - and that who I am is in fact unconditional acceptance

I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself  to see and realize and understand that guilt is a mind consciousness programming designed to sabotage me in realizing who I really am as life and realizing my potential to actually change this world and reality and change myself and take charge of existence and be assertive and direct things -- where guilt is more a programming meant to ensure that I stay trapped and limited within my 'preprogramming' as within guilt I end up basically only focusing on that preprogramming as the 'problem' and dont in any way allow myself to look at my potential as the SOLUTION

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'guilt' is who I really am by thinking that it makes sense for me to 'feel bad' about all this shit that I've helped create as life on earth due to all the things i've accepted and allowed myself to live and participate in within this world that ended up contributing to how things are -- as I've learned that that's what it means to 'be a good person', as in to 'show remorse' and 'feel bad' about 'my mistakes' as in the things I did which weren't best and were harmful -- instead of seeing and realizing and understanding that within this definition of 'being a good person' I'm actually only really looking out for 'my soul', as I believe that my 'soul' is somehow justified and purified through guilt and remorse, and that I will only be able to get into heaven if and when I show and feel guilt and remorse over my mistakes as my 'wrongdoings' -- where I thus don't actually really care about 'life on earth' and ACTUALLY doing what is best, because if I did then I would not be wasting time on guilt and remorse and emotions, but I would just CHANGE and I would simply move into finding and living solutions to fix and solve and change the problems that life on earth is facing

I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to see and realize and understand that guilt just shows my accepted and allowed separation from life and shows that i'm only concerned with my self-interest as in MY desire to 'get into heaven' - where I then believe that I must purify and justify my soul through guilt and remorse, while not actually ever doing anything to really change and live and exist in a way that would actually be of support to life on earth -- as I'm just existing in the ILLUSION of thoughts, feelings and emotions as energy in the mind that I am 'a good person' yet not actually living this as living words within and as physical reality

I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to see and realize and understand that within guilt as a mind consciousness system programming of ENERGY in the mind - 'being a good person' only stays in the mind as thought and a BELIEF, yet isnt actually anything REAL, as on a REAL level I am not actually in fact doing what a 'good person' would do, which is to actually change and focus on solutions and on actually fixing and solving and changing the problems in this world, rather than getting hung up on 'feeling bad' about the problems

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even consider believing that feeling guilty in any way makes me a 'good person' -- and that I am in any way a 'good person' because I'm feeling guilty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even feel guilty about feeling guilty -- and so to have 'guilt' as my automatic, immediate reaction to any fault, any mistake, any shortcoming and any 'wrongdoing' that I am faced with of myself -- to feel guilty any time I realize anything about myself that is not 'best' and is not 'good' -- as I believe that feeling guilty makes me 'good' and makes me a 'good person' and in a way 'washes my hands clean' and 'purifies my soul' so that I can get into heaven in the end -- instead of seeing and realizing and understanding that to ACTUALLY be 'good' would be to not be so hung up on 'my soul' and whether I will personally be able to get to heaven or not, but to rather actually focus on REALITY as LIFE that is actually HERE in and as this world, and to actually care about creating a 'heaven' for all and making sure that everyone and everything goes to 'heaven' through actually creating and establishing a heaven on earth

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see and realize and understand that guilty is thus basically the opposite and the reverse of truly being a GOOD PERSON -- as guilt is really at the end of the day only about MY SOUL and ME in separation of everything and everyone else in this world, as within guilt I really only care about whether 'my soul' goes to heaven, while I'm really not at all concerned with what's really necessary to fix or solve the problems in this world or how I would need to change in order to live as the SOLUTION -- as guilt is part of that religious programming in the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the words 'good person' within and as guilt in the mind - instead of seeing and realizing and understanding that guilt is actually part of the EVIL of the mind, wherein I exist in illusions and dont really LIVE or honor LIFE, but only BELIEVE that I am living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever even consider trusting guilty in the mind instead of trusting common sense and trusting reality -- and the realization and understanding that, while I am feeling guilty in the mind, believing myself to be a 'good person' because I feel guilty, I am not actually actively working on solutions or ways to CHANGE the PROBLEMS that I feel guilty about, and that therefore on a real physical level I am thus not in fact a 'good person' because on a real physical level clearly I dont actually care about life on earth  because if I really cared then I would spend more time working on solutions and living solutions rather than spending all my time just focusing on and feeling bad about the problems without in any way really asking myself what it would take to solve those problems -- which is what it means to actually care about life, is by actually making sure that life is 'taken care of' on a real physical level

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see and realize and understand that who I really am is not guilt, but in fact a fluid, fluent and flowing movement of CHANGE and living the SOLUTION, anytime I am faced with a PROBLEM -- which actually does not involve guilt as an emotional experience at all, but is in a way guilt redefined, as in what it means to truly be a GOOD PERSON in this world

I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to see and realize and understand that its not about not living guilt at all, but to simply redefine guilt and so redefine what it means to be a 'good person' and live it in a way that is REAL rather than an illusion as just a thought and experience in the mind

I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to live the word guilt as a living word and so to live the words 'good person' as living words, in a REAL sense -- where guilt is not a thought or a feeling in the mind, but 'guilt' means more 'gehouweeld' - as in to 'work on' creating something -- to put effort and labor into 'bringing about' something in physical reality -- which is in fact the opposite of 'guilt' as defined within the mind, where you actually don't really put effort or labor into anything and in a way even paralyze yourself to do anything at all when it comes to physical reality, as you're just sitting, staring blindly onto and within the experience of 'guilt' as the BELIEF that 'I am a good person', yet completely ignore the physical reality as in the LIVING WORDS of 'being a good person' and what that really entails

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to live the word guilt in terms of actively 'working on' and putting effort and labour into bringing about SOLUTIONS - and to therein on a physical actually live the words 'being a good person', where it is undisputed that I AM a GOOD PERSON, because I am actually CREATING a world that is GOOD for all life on earth -- and so the proof is in the pudding, where what I create is one and equal with who and what I am

I: Standing as existence. I am all that exists. There is no separation. I am all life and all beings.

L:  I don't need to move. I don't need to do anything. It's all here, at my feet. I am unique and original. I am the life force that 'powers' everything so I am the origin of everything. I ask myself and question what it is that I am powering. I take charge of myself as life force and stand as who I really am as life force. As that which powers everything in existence. I design and determine my own path and decide and define what I give my power to. When I move myself and do things, I make sure that I'm not just moving according to preprogramming, but that I'm the one deciding who I am in every moment and that I move myself based on who I decide to be. Not allowing 'movement' and 'doing things' to be defined by preprogramming in and as the mind, but always reminding myself of who is the one that's powering all this: me! Actually asking myself: well who am I really? If I'm not all this, then who or what am I?! What is it that I DO want to give power to?? What do I live INSTEAD of the preprogramming?? That's up to me now. To actually take existence in my hands and CREATE something and have my movement and 'doing' be from the starting point of that CREATION.

T:  I stand as the cross as in everything comes together in the heart of me. And everything flows from the heart of me. I am the 'passion of the Christ' and with open arms I meet the world and embrace everything as me. I stand and live as the solution and show the world the living example of what is best. I'm like a star, being a 'shining example' showing and leading the way for others to also realize themselves as life. Showing that the solution and living the solution is all that matters. Let's not dwell on the past but let's rather allow ourselves to just change and live what's best. Showing that it's possible. That us human beings don't need to live as prisoners of the mind.

SUMMARY: Taking and realizing complete responsibility for everything and realizing that the solution is right here within me, within letting go and trusting myself - that I AM the solution and that I must simple let go of everything that is not who I really am - as well as the capacity to live that solution and be a 'shining example' of what's best and of our 'human potential' to be CREATORS. 

Faith

"Faith. The problem with the word Faith is that it's been defined according to, primarily, what one believe in. So, every mind has beliefs that they have Faith in. Faith being this 'trust' that whatever they believe in, will come to fruition. The consequence of Faith in its relationship to Belief - is No Action. Because the Consciousness of the Human will have their Faith in Belief - Belief as knowledge and information they materialized into an entity/force in their Minds, connecting that with a relationship of Faith that is a form of Trust. So, this means that - human beings have Trust misplaced into Belief. Even gone as far as making Faith/Mind Trust aligned with a Belief - so creating a Belief out of Faith itself.Faith. The Solution is a Faith in/as Self that is Certain, that is Real, that is VISIBLE. Where it is not based on a trust/faith that you have in a belief/something/someone in the Mind that has proven NO substantial, real living solutions to life/living on earth; but this Faith/Trust is something you laboured in/as your Practical Living Change, and can provide the Evidence of this Labour in writing, and in Living. Thus, the Solution as Redefinition of Faith - is a Living Trust in yourself, in who you are, what you stand for and what you stand as; that is physically evidenced in your constant, continuous relationship with yourself, others and existence as a whole. And So, Faith/Living Trust becomes a Presence as who you are. 

Faith. Reward. You reap the rewards of your Self-Living/Labour in establishing this Faith as Living Trust in/as who you are, what you stand for/as and actually bring forth, through Living Action, change in this world/reality. A Practical measure for Faith redefined is that, you have the Trust in you as you walk and prepare yourself in this process, that: who you are within what/how you live will come to fruition and that nothing will/can change unless you put the living effort to do so - writing, communication, expanding, courses etc. - becoming an expert in Living; and so eventually it will not only be self that benefit, but also those that walk with you as a Living Example of LIFE/Living Faith as Living Trust in/as Self." ~Sunette Spies

Belief

"made superior. Mostly, Belief is in fact abused for those that do not want to/see themselves as capable of doing something/changing something, and so instead create an alternate version/representation of self into/as something/someone else one believe to be more capable of doing it
		Like, we created Belief into/as Money – giving money the responsibility to manage survival. Created a belief in God – to manage consequence of individual human beings’ lives on earth and/or reward for human being’s lives on earth.
		Belief. The Solution. So, have a look at what one created a relationship of belief towards, superiorized – and see what part of self, self had separated responsibility into/as. Cause, you’ll only create a belief out of something/someone, if you yourself believe that you cannot do it. Then, from there – see how it can be changed, how can you take that Responsibility within/as the principle of/as what’s best for all. So, we use beli
		ef practically; bring it back to personal self responsibility.
		Believe. The Solution. Believing is the Personality that develop in relationship to Faith and Belief – where we create a real energy entity/presence as we truly BELIEVE this faith/belief to be ‘right’ – so to make Believe real, we have to become the visible force within this physical existence for human beings to really be able to see a prospect of a future for humanity. This will create a constructive believing in/as human natur
		e to change and there in fact being a future for humanity. So replacing current Mind-believing to real physical believing/achieving of change." ~Sunette Spies

World

in terms of the word 'world' - that is sounded as 'whirled' - is quite an interesting point, as the word 'whirled' in itself implies the egotistical standing/viewpoint of the human. Where we, when we say 'i exist in the world' - this 'world' actually only implies that 'spiral' wherein i am apparently 'the center point' and everything 'whirls' around me - as we, within the word 'world' clearly only focus on the 'whirled' aspect about the world, the point of the world 'evolving around' a singular point, like how the ego desires all and everything to evolve around itself to make itself feel important. When really, the fact that the world 'whirls' is the most irrelevant part about it, because that doesn't directly have anything to do with actual life that is here - and only entices the human to focus on the 'more' part, the belief that there is apparently something 'more' than what is simply here as life itself.

This is exactly why we have been brainwashed to become these ego's through words (that we define ourselves with within our minds) as the belief that self is the center of everything,

and the reason why we have to redefine words to become a point of self-directiveness, wherein we make sure that the words we speak do not come from a pre-programmed perspective that will only support our ego as self-interest but will rather stand for what is best for all life equal and one..

so for instance, to say 'i exist in the world', within the principle of what is best for all life, would imply that i stand here within and as the realization that i exist here, and what is here as the world is my 'home', it is me, one and equal - therefore it does not 'evolve/whirl around me', it is me so i am completely responsible for creating and supporting a world/an existence that is best for all life that exist in the world that is also me.

I realize that there is no point in pre-occupying myself with the fact that the world apparently 'whirls' as that is the ego perspective of the word 'world', that is always looking for an experience to get away from HERE.

From the starting point of oneness and equality as what is best for all - the world implies the simplicity of life as my environment as all that is here wherein i am responsible for myself - no matter where i am or whether or not the ground/planet that i stand on is whirling in some universe, as that is completely irrelevant knowledge/information.

And i am responsible for directing my environment as 'my/the world' according to what is best for all in oneness and equality - wherein I decide the 'state of the world', I decide within my direct environment what the world is as a living statement of who I am.

Humility

"Would humility be to agree with another as yourself when they say what you already understand as you understand that your support will mean more than you trying to make a point that you know more?"

"is humility the ability to step back and allow another to become equal as one?"

"There can be no winner in a world that is best for all --as it will be a win win solution"

~Bernard Poolman


"Humility is to be able to start new unconditionally without holding onto past accomplishments as ego" ~Matti Freeman



Humility is a word that I immediately within my mind associate with 'humiliation', because they are similar words and because of experiences within my past of feeling 'humiliated' - wherein I associated the word 'humiliation' with a negative value and thus experience this automatic 'negative experience' towards everything that looks/sounds like 'humiliation' - like 'humility'.

I would fear humility because i fear feeling humiliated - I fear that if i were to be humble, that that would mean to 'stand under' and 'be less than' others, making me an 'easy target' for abuse by other beings like the 'humiliation' that I experienced as a child when my parents/teachers were angry/upset towards me and punished me - wherein I felt humiliated, looked down on and disrespected.

In this world, I learned that in order to survive and live a decent life, I have to fight, struggle and compete with others, constantly showing that i am 'the best' and 'better' than others in everything I do from the words I speak, to sports, to drawing, singing and writing , and that I should be in constant 'defense mode', ready to react whenever I feel like someone is trying to exert power over me and try to 'put me down', to make sure that I never end up in those situations that I was in as a child with my parents, wherein I often felt humiliated, inferior and powerless.

I have always existed within great anger towards this reality, towards my parents for punishing me, towards teachers for speaking to me in a demeaning way - generally for me feeling 'humiliated' and 'inferior' as a reaction to how my environment expressed themselves towards me - therefore I have in a way always been existing in competition/battle/conflict wherein I basically wanted revenge, I wanted my environment to feel that same humiliation and inferiority that I had always felt within myself, and thus I would rather exert my ego and show everyone that I am apparently 'better' than them and 'superior' than to be humble and allow others to also express themselves.

I would remain stuck in the experience of myself as feeling 'attacked' by my environment due to memories of being punished and reacting with fear - wherein I was still seeing my environment just like I saw my parents/teachers, which is like 'monsters', like 'the bad ones', the ones that I have to fight and defend/protect myself from, thus my struggle/conflict/competition with them of trying to 'win' from them seemed justified and 'right' because I am apparently 'the victim', which is like that whole concept of 'the battle between right and wrong, good and 'evil' wherein 'good/right' must always win and destroy 'evil'/'wrong'.

Yet, I never noticed that in my 'battle with evil', believing myself to be the apparent 'good/right one', the 'hero' - I was in fact doing the exact same to that which I deemed to be 'evil' as what that 'evil' did to me, which caused me to react with fear of 'evil' in the first place. Therein the 'evil' was eventually me, I just never noticed it as I was still stuck in that initial experience of fear, wherein I felt like I was the victim - so I would never even notice that I am now becoming the 'monster' in trying to fight that which I felt threatened by.

This is the origin, reason and bases of WAR - wherein neither side is willing to be humble because they both feel threatened/afraid and thus both belief that they are 'right/good' in their battle with/against that which they experience to be 'the monster'/'evil' - and this obviously stems from the EGO as the unwillingness to consider anything but personal automatic emotional/energetic reactions, the unwillingness to place self in the shoes of another and realize that all exist here as life-form and there is no 'good' or 'evil', there is only life as what is HERE wherein all is one and equal. It is this EGO that messed everything up, that clouded our vision of what is real and who we are - as we got caught in an endless chain of reactions towards each other, that is all based on a deep-rooted fear of death coming from memory, wherein we learned that 'life'/'reality' will kill/destroy/attack us if we do not react and defend ourselves and try to be 'the better person/ego'/'the victor'.

And thus it seems that humbleness can only exist when and where there is no fear of death - because as long as we fear to die, there will always be the fear that another might 'take our life' and we will never truly be able to allow another to live and express themselves as we will always attempt and try to control our environment to make ourselves feel safe and secure.

Humbleness can only exist as respect for life/existence and realizing that what I do unto another is what I do unto myself - thus being aware within my 'interaction' with other beings/life-forms, that I am speaking to/interacting with myself. And within this realization/awareness one is forced to become humble as you stand in the face of yourself, because towards yourself there cannot be lies, deception or secret 'back-rooms' within the mind that serve to 'protect and defend self'. You know yourself, you can look into the darkest realms of yourself - so you cannot lie to yourself, you can only lie when you believe that there exist 'another' that is not you.

Humbleness is the realization that all is me - and the practical application and living of this realization, of checking myself within self-honesty in each and every moment of interaction with this reality, to make sure that I am not trying to in some way deceive/manipulate reality for my own personal survival/future - within the realization that I am responsible for this reality and what I allow to exist within myself will determine what I allow to exist within another being as myself and consequently it will determine the kind of reality that I allow to exist (which at the moment is a very deceptive reality of capitalism as a game of survival of the fittest wherein all beings are set out to destroy each other). Humbleness is to support all life that exist here within my reality as myself completely, totally, absolutely and unconditionally no matter what, as a statement of who I am as humbleness, because who I decide to be is only what is best to the ultimate degree and because I realize that I am here and I am life, thus it is my responsibility to stand as the living statement of what I as life will and will not allow to exist within myself.

And this has got nothing to do with that entire ego-game of 'humiliation vs domination' - because both the experience of humiliation as the experience of domination come from a starting point of separation, of seeing myself as apparently 'special' and 'separate' from life, and apparently not responsible for all as myself. Actual real humbleness is not an inner energetic experience that would separate me from the reality that exist here, forever more stuck within the energetic polarity friction of 'inferior vs superior', always looking for 'who I am'.

Real HUMBLENESS/HUMILITY is in fact an act of GOD, to stand as the GOD principle of taking absolute responsibility for all that exist here as myself - and to thus direct existence to become what it is supposed to be, which is heaven, within the image and likeness of myself as GOD as humility that exist within the lived and applied realization of oneness and equality. Not accepting anything less than 'Divinity' as who I am as life as who all really is - and to realize that those that 'choose' to not exist as that divinity of oneness and equality, are being deliberately spiteful towards themselves as life and are thus making the statement that they are not life as they are not willing to accept and respect all existence as themselves - and they accordingly have no place in heaven.

Humility in action is to make the decision to step out of the mind as self-perceived superiority wherein I have constructed a 'personality' of believing myself to be 'God' that has dominion over all life that exist here and wherein I have become addicted to the 'energetic experience' of 'feeling as though I am God'. Humility is to in fact realize myself as God and to give life instead of take it, to nurture life instead of destroy and consume it - and therein giving myself as life to myself, creating the opportunity for self-enjoyment to emerge. This is God enjoying Self as Creation in oneness and equality, because what I have been doing and existing as up to now has been basically running away from myself and trying to find 'Joy' somewhere 'outside' of myself, objectifying and separating creation from myself to exist in the illusion that all is not me and that there is a way to 'not experience myself', which would be in 'energy' as 'the soul construct'.

To exist as the living application of HUMILITY is to exist as God enjoying Self as Creation as all there is within and as oneness and equality.

Humility is also specifically to realize that 'all does not evolve around me' and to stop myself in being so fixated and obsessed with my 'self-image' as the 'light' that I shine within and as my mirror-reflection - and to allow another to realize themselves and to support another in realizing themselves as life itself as humility. Humility is to place myself in the shoes of another and to thus allow another as myself to stand up and realize themselves as who they really are as one and equal with myself.

Compassion

"compassion - standing in the shoes of another - daring to create a world where we can all stand is all's shoes"

"currently compassion is like saying there is reasons for suffering, feeling bad for them, and just praying for a change - praying is how we pretend we are compassionate "

~Kristina Salas

"Compassion has become the feeling of Ego to justify status/position towards those less fortunate and maintains that separation through constructing a 'I am compassionate human being' - but again: does nothing practical to relieve the situation for all, equally as one in this world but only gossip in their friend-circles about their ego's compassion and so generate energy in their illusionary reality" ~Sunette Spies

"compassion as an understanding of what another being is going through, but is not acted on is actually evil" ~Kelly Posey


"compassion is the active living of a solution as another because due to circumstance they are unable to stand up for themselves"

"compassion is the understanding of the suffering of another and to take action to make sure the suffering is removed from the accepted reality and to never give up till it is done"

~Bernard Poolman

"Compassion is the act of sharing and giving of oneself as self is able to see the path of another as self" ~Esteni De Wet



How have I experienced COMPASSION within my life? I remember that as a child I was not 'compassionate', as that word that grown ups would sometimes use - I really did not care about the other children, and I was always only thinking about myself. For instance, when I saw another child crying, I did not feel anything within myself, I did not feel any form of pity, compassion or sadness and I didn't have that automatic reaction of 'awww' that grown ups and some children would have to then immediately go and comfort that child.

So eventually I would start to cultivate the experience of 'compassion' within myself, so that I could feel as though I am a 'good person' according to certain standards that were apparently set in society about what it means to be a 'good person', which is 'someone that is compassionate', 'someone who cares about another' and 'someone who helps others' - so I deliberately created an experience that was not really me, out of fear of other people, fear of being rejected by society and the desire to be accepted and seen as a 'part of the human society/reality'. I would thus basically pretend to care about how human beings felt and apparently 'feel sorry for them' when they felt 'bad'/'negative' - because in self-honesty, I don't care and I never really have truly cared about how beings feel, even though I was apparently supposed to according to my environment. I only pretended to care about how they felt because I wanted them to care about how I felt, and the interesting thing about this is that I always actually believed that other people really do care about me, not considering/seeing that maybe that is also just pretends just like I am pretending.

In reality all I really felt within myself was lots of fears towards my environment, towards this world - and to be compassionate when I saw a being suffering, was like trying to justify the fear that I felt to stand up and direct the situation so that this being wouldn't have to suffer anymore. For instance the 'compassion' that I would experience within myself towards those that are starving to death in Africa, seeing the images of the children that are skin over bones - is actually a feeling/experience that originates from the emotional experience of powerlessness as fear within myself towards the world, wherein I actually know deep down within myself that I could do something to stop this suffering and change this world into a world that is best for all, yet I feel so afraid of the world and what might happen to me that I feel paralyzed and will thus never actually move myself to make the change possible - and then I use this experience of 'compassion' within myself towards the images that I see in the news to make myself and others believe that 'I do care', even when my actions prove the opposite, so that I can still in a way justify my existence as apparently 'a good person'.

In other words, the way I have 'lived' the word 'compassion' has been very deceptive as I only used this word as an empty experience that served my ego so that I could feel good about allowing the abuse that I see to exist in this reality. And I never realized my responsibility towards this world - I never realized that if I do not live compassion as a self-honest living practical application of myself and just use the word out of self-interested motives, than others will as well because that is what I am supporting in my reality - thus I am creating a reality wherein no one cares about anyone or anything and what is worse, when someone is in fact suffering, everyone else pretends to care to make themselves feel good. Small actions are taken to 'show that we are compassionate beings' though real solutions are never implemented and real lasting change is never considered - thus only perpetuating the suffering, making it an endless painful dying process that stretches out over generations, which is in fact worse than if we had simply done nothing at all because at least then things would be clear.

Whereas now, these beings in Africa are being deceived by our apparent 'compassion' that we 'show' in our 'food-aid', 'doctors without borders', 'UNICEF', 'Oxfam', etc. into believing that we actually care about them and that we are such good samaritans. We are luring them into trusting us and into believing in us as these apparent 'Messiah' that come their with all our food, water and medication as the 'saviors', while we will never actually make any lasting change because that would mean that we'd have to give up our lifestyles of luxury with all our cheap products made with cheap third-world labor. And so they become stuck in this illusion that we are the 'white angels' that will 'save' and 'help' them, wherein they would gladly place their lives in our hands, trusting that we will take the best care of them, never realizing that it is all a pretty illustion that we spin in front of their eyes to make ourselves feel good about allowing such abuse to exist in the world, because 'we're helping, aren't we?!'.

Really, if we would stop helping them, what would happen? They would realize what actual assholes we really are, they would realize that they're being duped by us, they're being exploited, disregarded, sucked dry, shoved aside by the 'world economy' and its 'big players' - and they'd actually start standing up for themselves. If they were to see the evil that we are doing to them, they would stand up and change their situation themselves.

Yet, since the beginning when we got there, we brought our 'compassion' with us, along with our slave-trade market and businesses - we went there with our priests, our 'missionaries' that were the apparent 'white angels of God', cleverly brainwashing them into believing that there is something seriously wrong with them and they should therefore always trust us, no matter what we do, no matter how much we suck the life out of them, abuse and use them for our own personal goals and satisfaction - not unsimilar to how parents raise their children - we do it all because 'we love them' as we are such 'loving beings'.

So now, what has our 'compassion' done? - besides reveal to us that we are such deceivers, such liars, wherein compassion is nothing but a handy tool that we use to continue lying and deceiving.


To be truly COMPASSIONATE, as to truly care about other beings and to truly 'have their best interests at heart' is to not simply speak words without practical physical action. Real compassion is to see, realize and understand that this reality is suffering - and to then have the guts to stand up as a self-respecting being and dedicate self to stopping the suffering once and for all for all living beings. It is to stand up for those of which I see that they are not able to stand up for themselves and give myself completely for what is best for all, within the realization that if I do not stand as/for what is best for all in every moment of breath unconditionally, then I am not real as all that is real is life here, all life-forms that exist here - as the image and likeness of myself as life/existence. All life that is here, is me, so if I do not live as the living application of compassion as what is best for all, then I am basically making a statement that I am not life and thus deserve to die and be non-existent.

To be truly compassionate is not to put up a show, as an 'image of self' to show to other beings and God 'what a good person I am' - compassion in action is to in fact in each and every moment consider the practicalities of what it takes to establish heaven on earth for all life-forms - and to direct myself accordingly within this reality. Real compassion is to realize, see and understand that there is immense suffering in this reality - and to then have the guts and the self-respect to stand up and do whatever it takes to create the world/reality that I know should be here - instead of standing passively on the sidelines, within the belief that this passive attitude is justified because of apparent 'free choice'. Instead of realizing that 'free choice' is a fairy tale that I have copied from my parents/environment that may sound nice in theory and that is apparently 'ok' and 'real' within this reality where every human uses this 'free choice' as an excuse/justification/validation for this existence - yet when it comes to the realization of myself here, of myself as a self-responsible being, and when it comes to the realization that I am alone here within and as myself, there also emerges the realization that what I allow to exist here is what I allow to exist within myself - as I actually make a statement of who I am to myself as existence in each action that I take in each moment of breath, in what I allow and what I do not allow.

Love

"Love - to not give up on yourself or others/existence - but willing to stand no matter what, to not accept and allow anything less than the principle of/as what's best for all and be willing to take the risks/actions necessary to get this done" ~Sunette Spies

"Love practically is what parents claim they do when they correct a child --if only they would direct the child in the correct direction which is what is best for all life" ~Bernard Poolman




Redefining the word LOVE to stand the test of time and into a word that will effectively support a world that is best for all life.

What is 'love' at the moment - and what has 'love' been for me in my life? Love has always been something that was connected with a desire, the desire to 'experience' this apparently profound 'love' that the world seems so obsessed about. I have actually always felt like I wasn't being loved enough, i didn't get the love that I needed, and was always looking for 'love' as this warm experience of complete acceptance, feeling accepted, respected, noticed, cared for - and especially, feeling 'special'.

Love in this world at the moment, has got a lot to do with the desire of human beings to feel special - and thus we are continuously searching for 'the one' that will notice us, that will complete our lives so that we may 'fulfill' our 'special purpose' in life and feel 'closer to God' within this experience of 'being loved'. So 'love' at the moment is a very conditional expression that is not a living statement of who we are, because we are 'looking' and 'searching' for it - and we're trying to 'generate' the experience of love inside of ourselves as this positive energetic experience and then we're trying to 'radiate' that love 'outwards' towards 'other people' in our attempt to 'help them because we're such 'good beings', so 'positive'.

And there is apparently on the other hand so much 'negativity' in this world - so much 'hate', that there are many people who will deliberately 'generate' love within themselves to 'counter' the hate that they see/feel in the world, within the belief that this 'love' vibration will win from the 'hate' vibration.

In other words - in this context love is obviously a reactive experience that is in fact motivated by hate, as an attempt to 'eradicate' hate with 'love' - which implies that there exist a certain fear towards hate as the reason why people will want to 'get rid of hate', and fears are always only considering self as personal survival and not 'the bigger picture'.

'Love' is really just a reactive expression/experience based on and driven by a fear of hate, fear of 'negativity' - wherein all of reality is not being considered. What is best for all and whether or not this 'love' experience and 'meditating on the energy of love' is actually what is best for this world as all of life is not considered at all, as love is really just an energetic reaction, just like hate is.

And within these such energetic reactions, be it emotions or feelings, what is practical and effective is never looked at or investigated, because reactions in itself is impulsive and ignorant, only considering personal survival. Therefore love as an energy has never and will never bring the solution for this reality, and it will never stop the 'hate' and 'negativity'.

The same goes for 'love' between family members or friends, as the 'special people' in ones life that apparently deserve 'special attention' and 'value' - in fact, this 'giving special attention/value to these specific beings in our lives' is the very reason why we are not seeing this love as a living statement in and of this world - because each being is too busy spending all their 'loving attention' to only a few beings as their friends and family, saying 'fuck you' to the rest of the world.

So what is LOVE then as a practical living application that actually will create a heaven on earth?

• Love is definitely not an energetic experience as that would only cause us to divert our attention towards 'something ethereal' like an 'alternate reality' that cannot be seen and that isn't actually HERE, basically losing ourselves within an experience that only seems real for ourselves yet not for anyone else in and of this world - no matter how much we try to 'radiate' it towards the world.

• Love cannot imply there being a 'special value' within a specific being or object that will then get all the attention, causing us to also become lost within a one-dimensional view on reality as all we are seeing is that one point, that one being/object that we experience 'love' towards - disregarding all that exist here in this world, allowing hate to roam the world while we 'feed on 'the energetic experience of 'love' within ourselves as 'our special experience' in 'our special personal reality'

So in essence, LOVE should not take our attention/focus/presence away from what is here as what is going on in this world - it should not be something that 'sweeps us off our feet', because that would imply that we are not taking responsibility for what happens here in reality. So, I realize that how I had always been accepting and experiencing 'love' is as a sort of escape from reality and from taking responsibility for reality as I felt afraid of all the 'hate' and 'negativity' that I saw in reality - and within this I actually victimized myself through trying to escape from 'hate' within the experience of 'love', actually stating that 'poor me, I am too weak/small/inferior/powerless' to face this 'scary/big' reality so I need an alternate reality of positive 'loving' feelings that I generate when I sit alone in my room, listen to music, sit with my friends and family and do the things that I like, to comfort me.

Wherein I don't even notice that I am allowing all of the 'negativity' and 'hate' that I see in reality to happen in other peoples lives that don't have the money that I have to buy their 'special lifestyle' and relationships to create their 'personal/private' world wherein they can generate these positive feelings of love - because instead of standing up and realizing that what I don't want for myself in my life shouldn't exist in another beings life either, and accordingly directing this reality to ensure that each beings life is equally valued and supported, I hid away in self-interest as fears and said 'fuck you' to the world while I pre-occupied myself with 'love' in my own self-created bubble-world of family and friends.


So I realize that real practical, effective LOVE is within and as the physical action that i take in this reality wherein i move myself in each and every moment to establish a world wherein each being receives the support that i would want to receive for myself - this is love made visible. Real love is caring for another as myself - considering another as myself, within consideration of what is actually real. So this 'love' is never based on assumptions, expectations, hopes, feelings, beliefs, wherein I would 'assume' that if I simply feel love towards people and smile a lot to let people see that I feel that love towards them, that everything will just 'magically' fix itself' - no, this love has to be in the most practical context, wherein I consider the technical details of what it actually takes to support all life in fact, so in no way based on hope and faith that 'it will all work out' because I would not want this for myself.

I would want to be able to trust on this 'love'. And hope and faith are not things that I can trust on as they have nothing to do with my physical situation. Actual love starts within self-honesty, as the actual looking within myself as what I would want for myself in this reality - and the reality is that I just want security and safety, I want to be able to live in dignity in this reality - to be sure that I have food, water and shelter every day. And that is why this 'energetic love' that we 'radiate' throughout the world is absolute bullshit because if we were to look at our own lives in self-honesty, we'd have to realize that that energy is useless - so then why would we 'send it out' to others in the assumption that in some way and for some reason they will be able to use it? Seriously, what are those that simply need food in their stomachs and water to drink and clean themselves with going to do with energetic love that they can't see, touch, eat or drink?

this type of delusions are easy to uphold and participate in when you actually have all of these physical needs met - then you can make yourself believe that the energetic experience of 'love' is going to save the world, instead of realizing that energetic love does not feed you, so it will not feed another either.

So, the real LOVE is in the practical support that we give to each other, it is in showing that we can be trusted to take care of each other - showing that we care enough to pay attention to and consider what another being actually needs to be able to live in dignity, not based on assumptions and feelings but on actual practical considerations, wherein we place ourselves in their shoes and consider the kind of support that we would need/like in their situation - within and as the realization of self as one and equal with and as all of life that exist here.

Real LOVE is seen within the consistency of the application of support - so it is definitely not a momentary energetic rush that 'takes you over' and 'sweeps you off your feet' into a 'profound' experience, that makes you want to do everything for this person and that is gone after a while, leaving you disinterested to do anything for this being anymore. So LOVE really in essence has got nothing to do with feelings or inner experiences, because these experiences cannot be trusted as they are energy that transforms, changes and comes and goes as it pleases.

That which is REAL must be able to be trusted at all times - so for the expression of LOVE to be REAL, it must be trustworthy and thus consistent, constant and stable as an unconditional expression that stands the test of time.

LOVE is to be humble and realize/see another as me and to consider within my actions in each and every moment that what i do unto another, i do unto me - and to be willing to stand as that point of absolute trust, as what i have always been looking for all of my life, to stand as the living example for all as me, as the point of what is best for all, and not give up or give into reactions of ego like fear, as i realize that by identifying myself with fear, i am actually supporting a reality of fear for every living being that exist.

Love is to realize that what i allow to exist within myself, is what i allow to exist within another, and what i allow to exist in another is what i allow to exist within myself - and to stand up for life/existence as what is best for all life to only allow the very best to exist within another/all as myself.


The Equal Money System is such a Real expression of LOVE - that is based on the equal consideration of all life to ensure that all beings receive the support that they need to live in dignity - within and as the principle of loving thy neighbor as thyself.