Humility

"Would humility be to agree with another as yourself when they say what you already understand as you understand that your support will mean more than you trying to make a point that you know more?"

"is humility the ability to step back and allow another to become equal as one?"

"There can be no winner in a world that is best for all --as it will be a win win solution"

~Bernard Poolman


"Humility is to be able to start new unconditionally without holding onto past accomplishments as ego" ~Matti Freeman



Humility is a word that I immediately within my mind associate with 'humiliation', because they are similar words and because of experiences within my past of feeling 'humiliated' - wherein I associated the word 'humiliation' with a negative value and thus experience this automatic 'negative experience' towards everything that looks/sounds like 'humiliation' - like 'humility'.

I would fear humility because i fear feeling humiliated - I fear that if i were to be humble, that that would mean to 'stand under' and 'be less than' others, making me an 'easy target' for abuse by other beings like the 'humiliation' that I experienced as a child when my parents/teachers were angry/upset towards me and punished me - wherein I felt humiliated, looked down on and disrespected.

In this world, I learned that in order to survive and live a decent life, I have to fight, struggle and compete with others, constantly showing that i am 'the best' and 'better' than others in everything I do from the words I speak, to sports, to drawing, singing and writing , and that I should be in constant 'defense mode', ready to react whenever I feel like someone is trying to exert power over me and try to 'put me down', to make sure that I never end up in those situations that I was in as a child with my parents, wherein I often felt humiliated, inferior and powerless.

I have always existed within great anger towards this reality, towards my parents for punishing me, towards teachers for speaking to me in a demeaning way - generally for me feeling 'humiliated' and 'inferior' as a reaction to how my environment expressed themselves towards me - therefore I have in a way always been existing in competition/battle/conflict wherein I basically wanted revenge, I wanted my environment to feel that same humiliation and inferiority that I had always felt within myself, and thus I would rather exert my ego and show everyone that I am apparently 'better' than them and 'superior' than to be humble and allow others to also express themselves.

I would remain stuck in the experience of myself as feeling 'attacked' by my environment due to memories of being punished and reacting with fear - wherein I was still seeing my environment just like I saw my parents/teachers, which is like 'monsters', like 'the bad ones', the ones that I have to fight and defend/protect myself from, thus my struggle/conflict/competition with them of trying to 'win' from them seemed justified and 'right' because I am apparently 'the victim', which is like that whole concept of 'the battle between right and wrong, good and 'evil' wherein 'good/right' must always win and destroy 'evil'/'wrong'.

Yet, I never noticed that in my 'battle with evil', believing myself to be the apparent 'good/right one', the 'hero' - I was in fact doing the exact same to that which I deemed to be 'evil' as what that 'evil' did to me, which caused me to react with fear of 'evil' in the first place. Therein the 'evil' was eventually me, I just never noticed it as I was still stuck in that initial experience of fear, wherein I felt like I was the victim - so I would never even notice that I am now becoming the 'monster' in trying to fight that which I felt threatened by.

This is the origin, reason and bases of WAR - wherein neither side is willing to be humble because they both feel threatened/afraid and thus both belief that they are 'right/good' in their battle with/against that which they experience to be 'the monster'/'evil' - and this obviously stems from the EGO as the unwillingness to consider anything but personal automatic emotional/energetic reactions, the unwillingness to place self in the shoes of another and realize that all exist here as life-form and there is no 'good' or 'evil', there is only life as what is HERE wherein all is one and equal. It is this EGO that messed everything up, that clouded our vision of what is real and who we are - as we got caught in an endless chain of reactions towards each other, that is all based on a deep-rooted fear of death coming from memory, wherein we learned that 'life'/'reality' will kill/destroy/attack us if we do not react and defend ourselves and try to be 'the better person/ego'/'the victor'.

And thus it seems that humbleness can only exist when and where there is no fear of death - because as long as we fear to die, there will always be the fear that another might 'take our life' and we will never truly be able to allow another to live and express themselves as we will always attempt and try to control our environment to make ourselves feel safe and secure.

Humbleness can only exist as respect for life/existence and realizing that what I do unto another is what I do unto myself - thus being aware within my 'interaction' with other beings/life-forms, that I am speaking to/interacting with myself. And within this realization/awareness one is forced to become humble as you stand in the face of yourself, because towards yourself there cannot be lies, deception or secret 'back-rooms' within the mind that serve to 'protect and defend self'. You know yourself, you can look into the darkest realms of yourself - so you cannot lie to yourself, you can only lie when you believe that there exist 'another' that is not you.

Humbleness is the realization that all is me - and the practical application and living of this realization, of checking myself within self-honesty in each and every moment of interaction with this reality, to make sure that I am not trying to in some way deceive/manipulate reality for my own personal survival/future - within the realization that I am responsible for this reality and what I allow to exist within myself will determine what I allow to exist within another being as myself and consequently it will determine the kind of reality that I allow to exist (which at the moment is a very deceptive reality of capitalism as a game of survival of the fittest wherein all beings are set out to destroy each other). Humbleness is to support all life that exist here within my reality as myself completely, totally, absolutely and unconditionally no matter what, as a statement of who I am as humbleness, because who I decide to be is only what is best to the ultimate degree and because I realize that I am here and I am life, thus it is my responsibility to stand as the living statement of what I as life will and will not allow to exist within myself.

And this has got nothing to do with that entire ego-game of 'humiliation vs domination' - because both the experience of humiliation as the experience of domination come from a starting point of separation, of seeing myself as apparently 'special' and 'separate' from life, and apparently not responsible for all as myself. Actual real humbleness is not an inner energetic experience that would separate me from the reality that exist here, forever more stuck within the energetic polarity friction of 'inferior vs superior', always looking for 'who I am'.

Real HUMBLENESS/HUMILITY is in fact an act of GOD, to stand as the GOD principle of taking absolute responsibility for all that exist here as myself - and to thus direct existence to become what it is supposed to be, which is heaven, within the image and likeness of myself as GOD as humility that exist within the lived and applied realization of oneness and equality. Not accepting anything less than 'Divinity' as who I am as life as who all really is - and to realize that those that 'choose' to not exist as that divinity of oneness and equality, are being deliberately spiteful towards themselves as life and are thus making the statement that they are not life as they are not willing to accept and respect all existence as themselves - and they accordingly have no place in heaven.

Humility in action is to make the decision to step out of the mind as self-perceived superiority wherein I have constructed a 'personality' of believing myself to be 'God' that has dominion over all life that exist here and wherein I have become addicted to the 'energetic experience' of 'feeling as though I am God'. Humility is to in fact realize myself as God and to give life instead of take it, to nurture life instead of destroy and consume it - and therein giving myself as life to myself, creating the opportunity for self-enjoyment to emerge. This is God enjoying Self as Creation in oneness and equality, because what I have been doing and existing as up to now has been basically running away from myself and trying to find 'Joy' somewhere 'outside' of myself, objectifying and separating creation from myself to exist in the illusion that all is not me and that there is a way to 'not experience myself', which would be in 'energy' as 'the soul construct'.

To exist as the living application of HUMILITY is to exist as God enjoying Self as Creation as all there is within and as oneness and equality.

Humility is also specifically to realize that 'all does not evolve around me' and to stop myself in being so fixated and obsessed with my 'self-image' as the 'light' that I shine within and as my mirror-reflection - and to allow another to realize themselves and to support another in realizing themselves as life itself as humility. Humility is to place myself in the shoes of another and to thus allow another as myself to stand up and realize themselves as who they really are as one and equal with myself.

Compassion

"compassion - standing in the shoes of another - daring to create a world where we can all stand is all's shoes"

"currently compassion is like saying there is reasons for suffering, feeling bad for them, and just praying for a change - praying is how we pretend we are compassionate "

~Kristina Salas

"Compassion has become the feeling of Ego to justify status/position towards those less fortunate and maintains that separation through constructing a 'I am compassionate human being' - but again: does nothing practical to relieve the situation for all, equally as one in this world but only gossip in their friend-circles about their ego's compassion and so generate energy in their illusionary reality" ~Sunette Spies

"compassion as an understanding of what another being is going through, but is not acted on is actually evil" ~Kelly Posey


"compassion is the active living of a solution as another because due to circumstance they are unable to stand up for themselves"

"compassion is the understanding of the suffering of another and to take action to make sure the suffering is removed from the accepted reality and to never give up till it is done"

~Bernard Poolman

"Compassion is the act of sharing and giving of oneself as self is able to see the path of another as self" ~Esteni De Wet



How have I experienced COMPASSION within my life? I remember that as a child I was not 'compassionate', as that word that grown ups would sometimes use - I really did not care about the other children, and I was always only thinking about myself. For instance, when I saw another child crying, I did not feel anything within myself, I did not feel any form of pity, compassion or sadness and I didn't have that automatic reaction of 'awww' that grown ups and some children would have to then immediately go and comfort that child.

So eventually I would start to cultivate the experience of 'compassion' within myself, so that I could feel as though I am a 'good person' according to certain standards that were apparently set in society about what it means to be a 'good person', which is 'someone that is compassionate', 'someone who cares about another' and 'someone who helps others' - so I deliberately created an experience that was not really me, out of fear of other people, fear of being rejected by society and the desire to be accepted and seen as a 'part of the human society/reality'. I would thus basically pretend to care about how human beings felt and apparently 'feel sorry for them' when they felt 'bad'/'negative' - because in self-honesty, I don't care and I never really have truly cared about how beings feel, even though I was apparently supposed to according to my environment. I only pretended to care about how they felt because I wanted them to care about how I felt, and the interesting thing about this is that I always actually believed that other people really do care about me, not considering/seeing that maybe that is also just pretends just like I am pretending.

In reality all I really felt within myself was lots of fears towards my environment, towards this world - and to be compassionate when I saw a being suffering, was like trying to justify the fear that I felt to stand up and direct the situation so that this being wouldn't have to suffer anymore. For instance the 'compassion' that I would experience within myself towards those that are starving to death in Africa, seeing the images of the children that are skin over bones - is actually a feeling/experience that originates from the emotional experience of powerlessness as fear within myself towards the world, wherein I actually know deep down within myself that I could do something to stop this suffering and change this world into a world that is best for all, yet I feel so afraid of the world and what might happen to me that I feel paralyzed and will thus never actually move myself to make the change possible - and then I use this experience of 'compassion' within myself towards the images that I see in the news to make myself and others believe that 'I do care', even when my actions prove the opposite, so that I can still in a way justify my existence as apparently 'a good person'.

In other words, the way I have 'lived' the word 'compassion' has been very deceptive as I only used this word as an empty experience that served my ego so that I could feel good about allowing the abuse that I see to exist in this reality. And I never realized my responsibility towards this world - I never realized that if I do not live compassion as a self-honest living practical application of myself and just use the word out of self-interested motives, than others will as well because that is what I am supporting in my reality - thus I am creating a reality wherein no one cares about anyone or anything and what is worse, when someone is in fact suffering, everyone else pretends to care to make themselves feel good. Small actions are taken to 'show that we are compassionate beings' though real solutions are never implemented and real lasting change is never considered - thus only perpetuating the suffering, making it an endless painful dying process that stretches out over generations, which is in fact worse than if we had simply done nothing at all because at least then things would be clear.

Whereas now, these beings in Africa are being deceived by our apparent 'compassion' that we 'show' in our 'food-aid', 'doctors without borders', 'UNICEF', 'Oxfam', etc. into believing that we actually care about them and that we are such good samaritans. We are luring them into trusting us and into believing in us as these apparent 'Messiah' that come their with all our food, water and medication as the 'saviors', while we will never actually make any lasting change because that would mean that we'd have to give up our lifestyles of luxury with all our cheap products made with cheap third-world labor. And so they become stuck in this illusion that we are the 'white angels' that will 'save' and 'help' them, wherein they would gladly place their lives in our hands, trusting that we will take the best care of them, never realizing that it is all a pretty illustion that we spin in front of their eyes to make ourselves feel good about allowing such abuse to exist in the world, because 'we're helping, aren't we?!'.

Really, if we would stop helping them, what would happen? They would realize what actual assholes we really are, they would realize that they're being duped by us, they're being exploited, disregarded, sucked dry, shoved aside by the 'world economy' and its 'big players' - and they'd actually start standing up for themselves. If they were to see the evil that we are doing to them, they would stand up and change their situation themselves.

Yet, since the beginning when we got there, we brought our 'compassion' with us, along with our slave-trade market and businesses - we went there with our priests, our 'missionaries' that were the apparent 'white angels of God', cleverly brainwashing them into believing that there is something seriously wrong with them and they should therefore always trust us, no matter what we do, no matter how much we suck the life out of them, abuse and use them for our own personal goals and satisfaction - not unsimilar to how parents raise their children - we do it all because 'we love them' as we are such 'loving beings'.

So now, what has our 'compassion' done? - besides reveal to us that we are such deceivers, such liars, wherein compassion is nothing but a handy tool that we use to continue lying and deceiving.


To be truly COMPASSIONATE, as to truly care about other beings and to truly 'have their best interests at heart' is to not simply speak words without practical physical action. Real compassion is to see, realize and understand that this reality is suffering - and to then have the guts to stand up as a self-respecting being and dedicate self to stopping the suffering once and for all for all living beings. It is to stand up for those of which I see that they are not able to stand up for themselves and give myself completely for what is best for all, within the realization that if I do not stand as/for what is best for all in every moment of breath unconditionally, then I am not real as all that is real is life here, all life-forms that exist here - as the image and likeness of myself as life/existence. All life that is here, is me, so if I do not live as the living application of compassion as what is best for all, then I am basically making a statement that I am not life and thus deserve to die and be non-existent.

To be truly compassionate is not to put up a show, as an 'image of self' to show to other beings and God 'what a good person I am' - compassion in action is to in fact in each and every moment consider the practicalities of what it takes to establish heaven on earth for all life-forms - and to direct myself accordingly within this reality. Real compassion is to realize, see and understand that there is immense suffering in this reality - and to then have the guts and the self-respect to stand up and do whatever it takes to create the world/reality that I know should be here - instead of standing passively on the sidelines, within the belief that this passive attitude is justified because of apparent 'free choice'. Instead of realizing that 'free choice' is a fairy tale that I have copied from my parents/environment that may sound nice in theory and that is apparently 'ok' and 'real' within this reality where every human uses this 'free choice' as an excuse/justification/validation for this existence - yet when it comes to the realization of myself here, of myself as a self-responsible being, and when it comes to the realization that I am alone here within and as myself, there also emerges the realization that what I allow to exist here is what I allow to exist within myself - as I actually make a statement of who I am to myself as existence in each action that I take in each moment of breath, in what I allow and what I do not allow.

peace

Redefining "Peace" into an expression of oneness and equality as a living application of what is best for all:When sounding the word 'Peace', it sounds a lot like the word 'piece', which already implies a separation. Peace as 'piece', as how I have been applying and using the word up to now has always been within this starting point of capitalism, wherein 'peace' is only able to be 'experienced'

• when I have my 'piece',disregarding others and only focusing on the personal wealth that ensures the survival of myself in this reality where millions suffer, starve and die. I would then claim 'peace' as some kind of spiritual experience within myself that apparently has got nothing to do with my material 'piece' that I need to in fact be able to experience this 'peace' within myself, so as to hide the truth which is that I am actually only interested in getting my 'piece' in this world (but I don't want to seem selfish so I'll call myself a 'peaceful being' as apparently 'transcendent' of the physical needs. Which is completely self-dishonest and self-deceptive.
  

• when we all have our 'piece of the pie' - for instance in a family with children, the children will very easily bicker and fight when they feel like one got more than the other and they didn't get their 'fair share/piece'. So within this, an equilibrium is attempted to be attained/maintained by the parents. However this is sometimes rather difficult as this 'peace' is based on ego within the system of capitalism, wherein each child/person is basically only thinking about themselves within the desire of 'getting as much as possible' and thus 'having more than the other'. So the parent is like the 'referee' that tries to keep everything 'fair' and 'peaceful' by giving each an equal amount of stuff/money/attention. Though this is not real, applicable peace that is best for all, because within this, the ego of the children/people is being supported within the belief that this desire to 'have lots of stuff' and 'have more than another' even when there is more than enough is normal.

In other words the 'peace' that is being applied in this world at the moment, is one of separation and ego, in a society-system wherein each one is actually only trying to get more than all the others - and 'peace' is then maintained through laws and regulations, that in essence only further support this selfish mentality within the human and that is not functional on a larger scale - as within this selfish, profit driven society/mentality, there will always be 'losers' - though then to apparently 'keep the peace', we come up with all sorts of excuses to apparently be able to justify why some have more than others, like for instance the illusion of 'survival of the fittest' that is apparently 'human nature', when really that doesn't make any sense because we're not even considering that within this 'human race' as the 'game of survival of the fittest', we are not getting an equal starting point when we 'begin the game' as some are born in poverty and some in wealth.

Therefore, because our 'laws' that are here to 'keep the peace' and because our excuses and justifications for the existence of poverty and starvation and suffering in this world don't make any sense - we create wars, as the 'winners' are pushing the 'losers' of this world to the brink of absolute suffering and extinction where they have no choice but to murder, steal and take up arms to just be able to survive in this reality.


So, who am I as PEACE as the living expression of life itself as what is best for all, as what serves that which is best for all in the best possible way?

Peace is only real, when all is considered as me, when I place myself within and as the shoes of another being and then move myself according to what i see is necessary to be done so that all may be able to experience this 'peace' within 'having a piece' in and of this world to be able to live in dignity. Because i realize that 'peace' within and as this physically manifested reality is not and cannot be an energetic experience within self, because this energy does not take into account who i really am as a part of this physical reality, as a body that needs nurturing such as food, water, shelter, etc. I realize that 'peace' as an energetic experience within self is only selfishness and really has got nothing to do with reality, as the reality that is here wherein all living beings, all life-forms are me - and therefore I can only be 'at peace' within and as myself when I am absolutely sure that all life-forms as me are at peace.

I realize that the 'peace' that i have been experiencing in this world is an experience of separation because i did not consider all 'pieces' of and in this reality as myself, one and equal - therefore i created an unequal reality, only minding my personal 'inner peace' - yet really being at war/conflict with myself, never being able to truly accept myself because i was not willing to see another as myself and live the peace that i professed.

Peace can only be real when i am sure that all pieces of reality are 'at peace' - then i am 'pieced back together again'. So, i live the word peace as in each and every moment considering all 'pieces' of me, as all of existence that is here, with and as myself, as i realize myself as one and equal with all that is here instead of a selfish consciousness system of apparent separation as 'individuality' that is only minding 'its own piece', while creating a reality of war while all others starve and die.

I live the word peace as the expansion of myself as the realization of myself within and as all life that exist here - to ensure in each and every moment that all may live in the best way possible - and that all receives as how i would like to receive, manifesting actual peace as a reality wherein no being will ever again have to fight another and create war with another to live.


And peace within and as practical real application is not just an 'inner experience of silence' wherein I can basically 'shut myself off' from the wars and conflict in this world in an attempt to make myself believe/experience as though it is not here - peace as the living expression of myself is to be and remain 'silent' within myself as stable and constant to be able to in each and every moment direct this world into and as what is best for all to establish this stability and peace for each living being - within and as the realization of 'that which is best for me is best for all'

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dimensional

dimensional - that which cannot be physically lived in self-action

dimensional refers to one particular dimension - within that only that dimension is considered/seen

Dimensional - the outflows of this physical-reality that has been fragmented into separate dimensions/forms such as mind/energy/illusions that are to be aligned back into equality and oneness as what's best for all

Breathe

the total interactive awareness of all parts in mutual support and directive principle in the movement and establishment of equality for all life

Self

self as what is best for all will be the accumulative effect of movement in all dimensions that always result in what is best for all -- thus there is a self as the universe as well. Self as individual and self as Universe must be equal and one always

Self is the part of the whole which I am directly responsible for in each breath

the self is a group of celss that co exist under the direction of its combined energy in a projected form as personality

self is the origin - the beginning and the end, cause and effect

self - an individualization/expression within what is best for all as oneness and equality

self - that which will birth into the living example of equality and oneness as what's best for all

Self is in separation when only an "I AM" exist instead of a Living Here principle within what's best for all .
'I am' in context of the personality will define only some prefered dimensions that would form part of the definition of self interest and ego

So - the process will be essentially from "I Am" to Self Here - with self as the living principle of/as what's best for all in actual reality. A living principle is that which is best for all always

Separation

that which do not support what is best for all life in every way possible

separation is considering self in disregard of all others as the whole

separation - the compromise of that which is one and equal in favor of self interest

separation creates a perception that best cannot be for all, then competition and individuality come up

Separation - not realizing that what is here is in fact you -- Separation is forcing illusion to act as though it is real

separation creates inequality and undermines the possibility of all reaching the utmost potential as creators

to claim not being aware that one is in separation will always ultimately reveal it self as self deception

separation is what lead to abuse, separation is justification to abuse others and not consider others as equal

Destonian

A Destonian is a person that is committed to the establishment of a world that is best for all life.